I’ve not had internet at home for over a week now, it seems.
Talk about inconvenient! I’m all excited to join the blogging world and down
goes the internet. I suppose I could look on the bright side and say that it
has given me a few days to live, grow, laugh, cry which equals, something to
write about.
That brings me to Cape
Girardeau , Missouri .
I am sitting in a hotel room by myself. That’s right all by myself, no husband, not
one of the three boys, two sugar babies, one dog or two cats, just me and what
is left of my sanity. I have taken myself to a movie, The Girl with the Dragon
Tattoo, very emotional. Back up, I should share that I have this wonderful privilege
because its time to share the kiddos with their real Dad. I was asked by Hubby if I wanted to stay the
night before I dropped the boys off or by myself. Of course I answered, by
myself. So, here I am! Ahhhh! I feel like I can breath and at the same time
trying to figure out just how I am going
to spend these few short hours of my total and complete alone time, silent
time, freedom to watch, eat, or go where I please time.
Go to movies and eat popcorn – check
Go to mall and have my nails done – maybe, I bought a color
I just need help with my cuticles.
Go to Panera Bread for dinner and bring back to enjoy a show
of my choice – We don’t have a Panera Bread in my town or much time to watch TV
much less of my choice.
Humm- could do some yoga, brought the mat
Could do some energy work, meditation
I could take the longest hot shower ever! Heehee
Journal
Plan my New Year’s goals
Too many things I could do with no distractions, UGH!
Of course I do have to leave in the morning and because I
have a spanking waiting for me, that I talked my way out of at 2:30am this
morning, I think I should be as free as I can possibly be. Silly I know, since
its going to hurt regardless of how much fun I could have today, but it sounds
like an awfully good way to think at the moment.
How did I earn a discipline so early in the morning? Ironic
actually, I was just bragging to Hubby about how I hadn’t said GD since my
first spanking over the issue and what do I go and do? Blurt out in a most despicable
tone “GD! ****” Hubby flew out of our bed grabbed the paddle so quickly I think
my heart stopped. I really was sorry and begged to have things taken care of when I got home and
he agreed. Whew! If he had spanked me right then, still angry, I know the first
few hours of my six hours plus of driving would have been not comfy. I am
doubly thankful that Hubby is perceptive and could hear that I really felt
badly, which lowered the count to 15. If I plan right I might make it home just
after he has left and it will postpone the inevitable yet another day. Is that
so wrong? I know I deserve this one, but I don’t want to run home for it
either.
It is still early enough for me to take a shower and get the
grime of the road and movie theater off of me and still go to the mall and eat.
I hope everyone is having a wonderful time getting into the spirit of the
season.
Okay. I'm jealous...of your time alone! Enjoy yourself and good luck when you get home. :)
ReplyDeleteOh wow. Alone time! It's awesome you came up with cool stuff to do. Me, I just tend to stare at the walls and not know what to do with myself lol.
ReplyDeleteWelcome to blogging! I am a lot like you, solitude resets me and I love it now and then. It's time alone with me..and I like me :)
ReplyDeleteIt sounds like you had a fine time alone, and you also have a very understanding husband who knew you needed that.
ReplyDeleteHugs,
Hermione
Rogue- Thank You!
ReplyDeleteLil- I know the feeling and have been working at learning how to enjoy spare time, it's a gift.
Stormy-Thank You! I love your statement about the fact that you like yourself, very refreshing!
Hermione- I feel very lucky that my husband understands this need.
Hugs,
Saguaroheart